Karma Curmudgeon

Yes, that is a reference to Culture Club, and what? I think I'm lacking the ability to show much love. Generally things have been really improving now that I'm not depressed and I've been excited about things recently, but the last year or so has made me a curmudgeon. It shows in the way I've been communicating with my friends and family recently.

I have a bit of a crush on a girl I met recently, it's undoubtedly genuine. I'm a little concerned of romance though, whether I'm too needy at the moment to get that involved. The plan is to stop thinking so fucking much, it's done enough harm already. She seems to like me, I should be thinking less and flirting more. I'm obviously way ahead of myself to think we could be romantically involved, it's possible I'm seen just as a piece of meat for sexual gratification. Do I hear some of you assholes laughing?

I start college on Monday. It might end up being torture, but at least it's something to get me out of the house 2 days a week. I've been trying hard to develop my portfolio when not working on the game dev. It's coming along, I'm starting to feel like a professional of my trade. One of the signs is that everything I work on, I cannot find tutorials/documents about. A sign I am treading on uncharted territory, becoming an innovator.